Tuesday, March 20, 2007

I can only imagine

At Bible Study last night we talked about how, "my" generation (30ish) is not (always) capable of doing nothing...we have to be doing something or have the TV on or the radio on or be on the computer. I am very guilty of this! So, I decided that on the way home (about a 25 minute drive) I would not listen to the radio or my ipod and drive home in silence, Here is how it went...

OK it is quiet and dark and I don't like that!...You gotta know when to hold 'em know when to fold 'em...where did that come from...we were talking about Casino Royal before Study....I be that is where that came from...what was the name of that game Gary said they played in the original...I remember Kim making that CCCaaa noise in the middle of it...what was it...didn't it start with B...oh well...You gotta know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em, know when to walk away, know when to run, you never COUNT YOUR MONEY when you're sittin at the table they'll be time enough for countin' when the dealin's dun...this is not productive...ohhh Sonic....ohh I want a milk shake...keep driving, keep driving, keep driving....what should I be thinking about...something from Bible Study...we talked about angels, I should think about this more...have I had any angels come in and out of my life?...Kevin...that's it Kevin...he was there when I had my bad panic attack, took me to him house for lunch and his wife made fresh veggies from the garden and he gave me books about anxiety and waited at the therapists office with me...do I say thank you enough...I hope so...I shouldn't say it too much though...why has my new In Style not come yet...that is not a good thought Molly, it will only make you want more...but SUCH a cool magazine...I really like how Rachel Ray shows you in Celebrities refrigerators, STOP...and Kevin always turned on the Christan radio station when he was the first one to work...what was that song I liked...what was it...something about how will I feel when I see you Jesus...I can't remember...I need to make Kozmo an appointment at the vet...know when to walk away know when to run...I can't believe that Chris and Jim are going to the race at Bristol...I need to decorate my house better...why can't I remember that song I liked so much...I can sing all of Princess Pat, but not that song...the princess pat, lived in a tree, she sailed across the seven seas, STOP!...I should email Kevin...or should I just accept that he supposed to be there when he was and that is it...alright dude if you are going to turn how about using your turn signal...I wonder if this is OK...I don;t think I am really being silent...I still can not stop thinking and singing...I can't believe I tried to run tonight...stupid lungs...I hope that lady did not see me spit out that uckiness...she was cute...I do think she is planting a little early...am I going to cut back the hydrangeas or not...i think it is too late...now what is that, it's something made, by the princess Pat...oh, they are selling that car...I wonder if I can get Scott to buy it...home again home again jiggity jig...I hope Scott left the door unlocked...I hope my key works...

So, that is that.

I found THE song this morning (it is byMercy Me):

I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk By your side
I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When your face Is before me
I can only imagine
CHORUS: Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe of you be still
Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself Standing in the Son
I can only imagine
When all I will do Is forever Forever worship
You I can only imagine

I think I need to go back to yoga

1 comment:

Andra Sue said...

I'm learning to sit Zazen...and a technique that I've been taught is to count your breaths on the exhalation. Go up to 10 and then start over. If a thought distracts you so much that you lose count, also start over. Keeps your mind a little more focused on being still. That being said, it's really hard to meditate, so good luck!