Thursday, July 5, 2007

A good idea would be to get it off of your mind

The Good, the Bad and the Ugly
(my apologies to Bolder for stealing this idea)

The Good: Lots of Holiday fun!!!!

Here are pics from the July 3rd boating trip:

yummy, mommy buggers!

And pictures from the July 4th rib feast:

Our Uncle Kit (who also takes the pictures, so is not in any pictures) is from Memphis and makes ribs every 4th...I think this might be Scott's favorite day of the year...

Even I get in on the action...
(look court, blue!)

Scott's Dad tries to keep up with him

The champ ate 25 ribs!

The Bad: to medicate or not to medicate, that is the question!

I have been really irritable lately and, as I have mentioned, crying a lot. The crying does not bother me as much as the irritability...I have had a really bad attitude lately, and I have felt like being alone...which is not a good sign.

In all fairness to the chemicals in my brain, I went from lots of meds, very quickly to some meds and then very quickly to no meds. Children, I think this is why they tell you not to do this at home! I am going to my therapist (not the drug prescriber) this afternoon to talk it out. I have a feeling that I will be back on some meds soon. I have come to terms with the fact that (as much as it pains my to admit openly that this is the case) I really got caught up with getting off the meds to be "normal." Now I might have to come to terms with the fact that Molly on meds is normal.

The Ugly: MY KNEE

Not so hot! Since my run Tuesday it has been soar! Like limping soar, like I'm not going down those steps soar, like someone get me off the floor soar, like Oh my gawd 6 miles soar! I am nervous about the race (I'm still doing it Mom!) and how I will handle it. I plan on doing the elliptical and swimming tonight and we'll see how it goes!

Take Care


See, you and me
Have a better time than most can dream
Have it better than the best
And so can pull on through
Whatever tears at us
Whatever holds us down
And if nothing can be done
We'll make the Best of What's Around


Aimée said...

Don't feel bad about having to be on meds if thats what you think is right for you. It doesn't mean you aren't "normal" or incompetent. It just means that your body has a hard time creating the dopamine or whatever it is that helps us to stay relaxed. Its the same thing as people that take Vitamin pills cause they know their body needs those nutrients, or like I've said before, insulin if you are diabetic. There is nothing to be ashamed of! Besides, who wants to be normal :) How boring.

Lisa - Slow & Steady said...

Good idea to talk to the therapist to make a good decision about meds.

And sorry about your sore knee. hope that gets better soon.

Andra Sue said...

Mmmmmm...riiiiiiibs. :-)

You'll get your meds issue figured out soon, I'm sure. Either way, as long as you feel good with the outcome, it will have been a successful venture...and I agree, who wants to be "normal"?

Matt said...

Crying to yourself and being irritable are to separate animals. You can run and hide when you're crying and you can live with that. I can't really live with myself when my irritablity effects other people. Hope the knee gets better. Don't worsen the injury by over doing it. take care!

Cynthia Blue said...

I hope your knee gets better. Mine hurt a while back and I went to a sports doctor. He is awesome. He had me bend on one knee, then the other. And the sore one bent inward and was not as strong as the other one. So I was running funny on it. Now I have to be careful that I land on that leg straight, and the knee is much better. He also gave me some exercises to do.

Cynthia Blue said...

Oh and great pics, looks like fun all around! I love being on boats on the water.