Great run last night. I did a 40 minute HR ROAD run (for those of you who do not know I am a treadmill devotee). I stayed within my heart rate parameters for 39 minutes...I am not ashamed to say I was so proud of myself and felt REAL good!
Newbie question of the day:
For a HR run I don't really need to know mileage...but later in the week I am doing mileage type runs...trying to get 3 miles in 36 minutes on Wednesday and an hour run on Saturday...do I get a pedometer, or drive around the hood and figure out landmarks....any other ideas that I am not thinking about?
Thoughts from the shower...a big SHOUT OUT:
When I started this blog it was intended to act as a journal to help me with the daily struggles of having OCD. I do not have the type of OCD that is commonly thought of and portrayed in movies (a la Jack Nicholson in As Good as it Gets). I am the obsessive type. I have trouble letting go of thoughts...I have a history of obsessing about my health...every disease I read about I am convinced I have. While this is somewhat common, where I divert is the ability to be reasonable about it and the ability to let it go. Panic Attacks result and my life is not the way that I want it to be. After a crazy year last year I was on a high dosage of meds and was controlling the symptoms...but on a high dose of meds was not where I wanted to be.
A few days into the blog world I met Andy, who met Johnny Tri. I was so impressed with JT that I started reading his blog daily and checking out the Tri blogs that he referenced. Pretty soon I realized that everyone had their ups and downs, but found strength in what their bodies COULD do, as opposed to worrying about what they might not be able to do. Soon I was trading comments with I've Landed, Skirough, Allez, Steven and more recently Laurie and momo.
I am a proud triathlete wanna be. You all truly inspire me. If you told me a year ago that I would be looking forward to lacing up my sneakers and running, I would not have believed it. Yesterday I laced up my sneakers and had a great run. It is your guidance and advice and support and great example that helps me through some tough days.
I will no longer let my mind tell my body what it can or can not do. I have drastically reduced my meds to a maintenance level. I have more energy. I do not want to sleep all the time. I read more (books, less magazines) and I have much more self confidence.
I am blessed to have my family, my incredible husband and this online community that leaves me looking forward to every day instead of dreading the next.
A time to build up, a time to break down
A time to dance, a time to mourn
A time to cast away stones
A time to gather stones together (Byrds)