Sunday, August 17, 2008

Everybody gets high, everybody gets low These are the days when anything goes

Catching Up

The Koz

Poor Kozmo has had another issue. He went in to get some dental work done and I mentioned that I wanted the vet to take a look at a bump on his chest. Well, it turned out that she is worried it might be a tumor and they took it off and sent it off to get biopsied. Poor Koz...

The Diet

Diet, what diet?

The fact of the matter is that I know what I need to do...I just need to do it.

I think that I was looking for a quick fix (aren't we all) and it was not happening fast enough for me. Then the lack of progress made me feel like a failure, which in turn made me make angry and frustrated (i.e. bad) food decisions.

So the new plan is this...there is no plan. As I said, I know what I need to do and I just need to do it. Everything in moderation baby!

The Exercise

My knees have really been bothering me lately.

I decided yesterday that one reason might be my shoes. I went today and got some new shoes and then headed to the gym. I immediately realized that the cushioning and stability of my old shoes was shot b/c the new shoes really felt zipped up.

I have been doing a lot of elliptical and a lot of circuits on the treadmill...5 minute run, 5 minute walk on an incline for 40-50 minutes.

My next goal...I need to get stretching back into the routine...I felt really tight the last two weeks.

The Race

I have a race next Saturday. I had high hopes of finishing on or around 30 minutes but I think that I need to let that go. The last two weeks I have done very little running...only in intervals.

That being said this race is paid for and I am actually really looking forward to it. The race is on Raccoon Mountain and should be a new and different experience.

So, the new goal for the race is to go naked, electronically naked that is. I am not going to take the watch or (gasp) the ipod. I am going to go out there and just run, enjoy the view and have fun!

The Meds

One of the reasons I have not posted a lot is that I am having a bit of a struggle off of the medications. The physical symptoms have returned and haunt me a good part of every day. I have been plugging along...and stopping to think about how I am doing or how I am feeling is dangerous.

I have better days, today is a better day, and I hold those close. I have to allow myself to believe that in time most days will be better days.

The Rest in Pictures

Everyday is a winding road

I get a little bit closer
Everyday is a faded sign
I get a little bit closer to feeling fine
-Sheryl Crow


Borsch said...

First...Good luck this weekend with the naked race!

Second...I hope the puppy is ok!

Third...try not to think about being on a diet. That is what I do. Just when I think about eating something bad I say "OK. I can only have 1 serving or less." It is all about moderation. Just find what works for you and stick to it. The numbers will come slow but know the NUMBERS WILL COME.

Kathleen said...

Best wishes to Koz.

And have fun at your race! :-)

Jess said...

Everything in moderation is a good choice! It's hard not to get frustrated when we don't see the pounds falling off as fast as we'd like!

Lisa Slow-n-Steady said...

Have fun running naked. That's a great idea for making sure you stay in the moment.

Poor Koz. Hope it's benign.

Danielle said...

Poor Koz...

Have fun with the race, even if it's not what you want to have happen timewise.

Diet is always a struggle for everyone. You plug along and think you're doing so well and scale doesn't move and it sets you back...I've been there. It's very hard. Just remember it's always hard and it's partly about how you're feeling in your clothes, along with the numbers on the scale.

Good luck with the being off the meds. I do hope it all works out well. More exercise I think will help.

Colleen said...

First, hope Koz is alright. I know he's your baby!!!

Second, as for the diet - just stick with being healthy. Don't think of it as a diet, but a lifestyle. Change little things here and there and you'll be fine! It all doesn't need to happen right now! :)

Third, best of luck with the race. I think running naked will help you enjoy the run, take in everything and just have a good time. And if it gets tough, just think about how lucky you are to be able to run! That's enough to motivate anyone.

Forth, just take one day at a time with the meds and whatnot. We all love you, good days or bad!

Megan said...

Even with the downs of the last few weeks, those pictures seem to be a perfect reminder that there are so many great things happening. Hang in there Molly!

Alili said...

Poor little Koz:(

Have fun at the race-celebrate that you are able to toe the line and enjoy the day!

tri-dogmom said...

any word on Kozmo yet? My Vizsla has several lumps that are getting better.. I had the vet look at them a few times, he thought they were just fatty masses. He gets a dental in october so they were goin to check it out then (while he is under anasthesia)..... I have to say though.. I'm pretty freaked out!