Wednesday, June 25, 2008

And in this moment it feels so right

SO....I am off of facebook for a moment....and the excitement is fading (or is this denial slipping into the 12 step program?).

My rehab took place in White Sulphur Springs West Virginia at a lovely little place called the Greenbrier. In actuality we visited this little slice of heaven for my Mom's birthday. It was an amazing trip and one that I will not soon forget.

We did cooking class, rode horses, swam in the indoor and outdoor pools, went to the spa, visited the bunker (cool story, check it out) and ate and ate and ate.

I will post pics soon but right now I need to submit myself for a reality check.

In the past two weeks I have forgotten about weight watchers, ignored my workout schedule and I have been completely and utterly self conscious.

The Greenbrier is an AWESOME place. I loved almost every second of it. The seconds I did not love were those when a skinny mother of two walked by in her short shorts, tank top and visor with a coffee in her hand, a tote bag over he shoulder and (in my eyes) the world at her feet.

Needless to say my own perception of myself versus this image was not good. Compounded by the fact that I have not been eating well, I have not been working out and I do not feel good in my clothes.

So, here we go (again). Tomorrow is another day. I am not sure how many times I will let myself get away with saying that...regardless, tomorrow is another day...5:30 workouts, weight watchers portion control and appreciation for the body that God gave me, that carries my crazy brain around all day, will all resume.

Now is time for the tangible. I will loose 15 pounds by the end of August. That is about 2 pounds a week and I KNOW that I can do that. I know that I WILL do that.

On the running front my next scheduled race is August 23rd. My goal...I will say it early and I will say it often... is 30 minutes. I have two months to do it and there is no reason that it can not be done.

So there...everything is on record...and now, let the games begin.

Take Care,

It's crazy I'm thinking
Just knowing that the world is round
And here I'm dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down
And is this real or am I dreaming


Borsch said...

Good luck with getting back in the work out groove and WW meal groove.

I can't wait for you to hit the 30 min mark in August!

Bullet said...

I'm pulling for you. Go go go go go go go og (oops) go go go go og (dang it) go go go go!

Colleen said...

It's hard... especially with the positive self image garb, but hang in there! It's alright to fall off for a while, as long as you know how to climb back on and it sounds like you are right on target! Don't think that your little hiccup was a disaster... just another lesson learned! :)

Your trip sounds fabulous and I can't wait to see pictures!!!

jkrunning said...

One of my favorite DMB songs....I am thinking I may be in facebook rehab soon. Will you be my sponsor?

Lisa - Slow & Steady said...

Let the games begin!!! she comes!!!

JohnnyTri said...

you can do it.. just take it one step/day at a time.. you'll be back in the groove...

your awesome!!


Danielle said...

Getting back on track is a good thing, but just so you know, you don't look bad! The pics from your trip looked fine. But I know what you mean...getting on track is a good thing.

Alili said...

Hang in there-I'm rooting for you!

Jumper 2.0 said...

Hey, remember some women (well people) look like they have the world at their feet, but reality is a whole other beast.

Isn't Greenbrier the place with the formerly secret hideout for the federal government in a time of nuclear war? I use to drive by it all the time when I traveled between Virginia Beach, VA and Chillicothe, Ohio.

Jennifer Djordjevic said...

Hi Molly! Sounds like you've been plenty busy. I can totally relate to this post. Sometimes I feel so unmotivated and it takes me a while to get to that place where I'm revved up - ready to take on the world. Here's to taking on the world!

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